Cheng Yunyuan, Bernadette;
01101991;
till death do us part.





Angeline | Dawei | Debbie | Elysia | Junyang | Lionel | Peishing | Yanran | YongQiang |

April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009

went tanning todayy!
andd now i'm back to my ncc days when i was really darkkk!
noww, i look more like a malay ):

nothing much was done today though.
i wish i had brought my cable to upload photos ):

okayy, home sweet home tmr!
i miss bobby and winnie ):

Bintan is....
boring?
i guess my mum was right.
its a place out to cheat singaporeans.
its suppose to be cheaper than singapore,
but apparently, everything seems to be the same.
the resort looks like some safra resort.
the costings for food is also the same.
so why am i here?
apparently, for a get away.
i guess we'll have to find something to do tomorrow.

did massage today though.
my first experience, hence i can't say its good or not.

and thank goodness, there's internet to save meee!(:
i feel really disconnected from the world without my laptop for a day.

going bintan tmr!(:
kinda excited!
havn't been outta country for awhile.
noww i'm at siqi's house.

i'm going to get all tanned,
again ):
and vicknesh asked me not to get tanner than him!
hahaha.
unless i am baked, if not,
its impossible(:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

its been a really great week!(:
i've been slacking my ass off.
noww its back to assigments,
projects, and more projects!

going to bintan on tuesday.
i guess its not going to be the first time travelling without my family.
i'll need this get away to relax my mind.
but i just hope nothing ain't too expensive.

my mother is menopausingg! arghh.

I'm too lazy to post pictures.
now facebook is easily available ;)
i love my prom photos!
it brings back memories.

went shopping today!
awesome finds.
but sinful hobby.
my bank is bleeding dry.

andd, debbie, i love your blog's current songg.
it described everything i felt.

I'M FINALLY DONE WITH MST!!
although its only mid semester test,
but it feels like the end of year three.
i've worked so hard, and stressed my way through,
just for today and the rest of the 3 weeks to come.
although tonnes of projects in hand,
but its definitely less tiring for my brains.

after prom, i realised how much i missed my friends.
ZHEPENG, ELYSIA, ABIGAIL and STEVEN.
it was glad just knowing that they're there and that they're doing well i guess?
as for the rest, i definietly did miss them someway or another.
i just hope our friendship doesn't end just like that.
i missed the times when we just hung out in the canteen and sit there for hours just talking crap,
playing psp;burnout.
i'd love to see them soon again.
didn't stay for long cause mst was occupying my mind.
i would feel utterly guilty if i stayed any longer.

i don't like to hide things,
and so, i've decided to let it out.
i'm over, and i've already arranged my emotions back in order.
i'm fine, just like before(:

i guess i've been too stressed lately,
my friends have been plucking strands of white hair for me.
i'll only have them when i'm driven by stress.
noww i've got deadlines to meet, and i wanna enjoy my holidays at the same time.
i need someone to do time management for me!

electronics was depressing,
seriously.

two more papers, and less than 24 hrs.
wheeeeee(:

and the truth will be out.
i'd promise myself that i'd make things clear, and be over with it.
i'm just afraid of the same reaction thats going to take place,
again.

Auto cad test in another 60 mins.
chances of PASSING,
10%.
wish me luck.

i'm having terrible gum aches,
break out on my face,
early period.
all thanks to stress.

can't believe this is happening to me ):
i need to cope with stress in a better way.

can't time fly faster, so i can get over all of these?
arghhh.

recently,
i've been getting unwanted attention cause of what i say.
its probably just this period of time.
it'll pass.

can't wait for prom night on 7th Dec(:
i wanna see everyone!
okayy, selected people.
chiong-ing for MST.
i need more stamina!

i don't know if i regretted telling you all this early.
cause i'm not prepared for the reactions you took.
its hurting like crazy.
i'm emotionless.
you left me cold and out of breath.

i don't usually wake up this early.
you gave me the motivation, thanks.

could i sleep and wake up with you erased in my memory?
i hope it happens.

i hate it when history is repeated.
and it has not happened the first nor the second.
do i really deserve it all?

maybe i guess its just plain infatuation.
nothing more.
please don't give me anymore false hope.
i can't take it any longer.

thanks, you just spoilt my day.

Back from a hideous day in school.
Lab test as screwed up.
Presentation was crappy.
and i can't believe i survived in school with only one hour of sleep.
never done it before though.

enjoyed my time in debbie's place.
my only time where i could relax, and not thin about school work.
this week has been hell for me, although we're only 2 and half days through it.
its starting to burn like crap.
but then again, fri is a holiday.
so it makes things slightly better i guess?
just can't wait to get my dip plus test done tmr!
doubt i'll be sleeping early tonight, AGAIN.
i'm drained, both mentally and physically.

classmates make my life easier(:
they are really there for me when i'm at my most frustrated period of time.
i sometimes do feel bad.
cause i tend to vent frustrations on people.
i hope they'll understand.
i love you,
SIQI, RABIA, YANRAN(:

19th of nov,
the night at the pizza place was mad awesome!(:

things are progressing,
but my mind is getting confused by the day.
i'm not sure of what i really want.
i'm indeed one confused child.

i'm mad stress noww!
its worse anything, ever!
now, i'm starting to regret taking diploma plus.
but then again,
its because of that,
that i can see everyone's care and concern for me.
its really heart warmingg.
but i'm afraid, i can't cope ):

every little thing triggers my irritation and my level of endurance for anyone.
i get grumpy and frustrated at the slightest things.
it seems like all the deadlines are cramped in the same week.
i want to get over all these soon.
my mood is affecting everything i do.
i have no mood for anythingg ):
arghh. crapp.

funny how i always seem busy, stress and loads of assignments in hand,
i can find the time and mood to blog.
and during holidays, i just don't have the mood to.

ANGIEEE.
please take care, and make a wise deicision.
for yourself at least(:

everyone seem so stress/ troubled over somethingg.
i feel kinda affected by it too.
i'm tired and sleepy whenever it comes to studying.
the mood and the flow isjust not coming, YET.
it needs to come real sooon!
when my mind goes on a holiday for a little too long,
its really difficult to get it adjusted to studying.
i'm so lost during lectures and tutorial and my mind just switches off.
i need motivation.
could anyone please motivate me?

thank you ely for listening to me last night!
you're the only bitch which i told.

it feels so good just letting that one person know everythingg.
i don't wanna lie anymore.
but who would ever accept?

MST is in 2 weeks time.
and i'm here struggling.
my grades are going to plunge ):
i hate to procrastinate, but i still do after 18 years of my life.