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Cheng Yunyuan, Bernadette;
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till death do us part.
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Wednesday, January 23, 2008
right now,
theres so much things going through my mind.
there are so many IFs
i'm just pondering and pondering and pondering.
what else is there for me to think.
i know people would tell me,
" you can do it. think positive "
but well,
somtimes you've gotta think of the cons.
i guess my emotions are taking control.
i'll probably cry myself to sleep tonight or something.
the fact that the results cannot be changed,
but i guess i'm just being nervous.
this is the most nerve recking part of my life for now.
andd i hate it.
i hate being kept in suspense for so gawd darn long.
the worst part being,
not able to face reality and accpet my marks.
i'm just too afraid i'll disappoint people who have pinned sky high hopes on me.
especially my gramma.
she sincerely wish for me to complete my university.
i pray that i'll fufil that wish of hers for her to see it personally.
* just wait gramma, it'll happen. just wait
now my mind is filled with tommmorrow,
and many what IFs.
how i wish i could stall time.
with so many people's support,
i cannot, and MUST NOT let them down.
please god.
help me.
i humbly beseech you to answer my prayers.
my heart is pounding faster than i can hear.
11:24 PM