i don't seem like i care about retaining in school.
i put on a brave front for a simple reason, to fight on.
i'm just afraid i'd breakdown someday, bottling all up.
time and time again, the reality of my results smacked right in my face.
i never fail to have the urge to cry out loud
but i just don't wish to reveal everything to everyone

i tried so hard, i really did
does anybody know?
i guess it doesn't really matter.
its impossible to please the world.
its always true that people who appear strong on the outside are the weakest on the inside.
i'm just so afraid i'd not be able to face the truth when the time comes.
now not even those in heaven can help me.
not even myself.
the sixty percent of those marks have already been tabulated.
although i know what reality really is, but ironically, i'd prefer to just assume.

i may sound like some emotional kid that would just slit my tongue, and drink them down when i dehydrate.
but life is just that dramatic ain't it?

nobody said it was easy(: