hello, my frwen(:

2010-02-06T21:02:00.002+08:00

almost offcial,
but not exactly.
you can toggle between these two blogs(:

www.thefacadeofthe20hundreds.tumblr.com

2010-02-06T00:48:00.003+08:00

vick bought bobby and winnie chicken rice without chicken!
and it still cost him $3!
damn silly,
but he showed a little too much love to them hurh?

i miss you two sweethearts!
i dont know how im going to live through chinese new year this year.
without you both by my side.
i'll be in depression for probably awhile.
im trying to escape the topic,
so please dont ask.
i know im in self denial.
just leave me be.

2010-02-05T00:12:00.002+08:00

heart of gold,
that what you told.

tmr is friday, and i have no mood for school ):

2010-02-03T23:43:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHA.

i had to upload this!

whenever i see the pictures, it tickles me.

bobby looks like a clown, and winnie looks tortured.

they look like chiwawa.

i'm so glad they look like shihtzu noww.

2010-02-03T23:23:00.002+08:00

settling things my way.
you started the bitch fight,
i'm playign along.
you can NEVER be as vicious as me.
i'm going ahead with ours.
and will you stop being a pussy and keep going to the teacher.
just to ask if your car was alright, complain about us,
yada yada.
its the last leg of the race.
i'm tired of your nonsense,
and i'm going ahead with my gorgeous car.
find me if you want.
better still,
go on and cry and wail to the teacher that we didn't consult you for your opinion.
I'VE HAD ENOUGH.
i'm running the show my style, my way.

and yet another post just for you,
PUSSY.

2010-02-03T16:45:00.002+08:00

my free day was left for you today.
but you didn't turn up and you had your reasons.
but im really glad you called(:

theres nothign much to do today,
but im really worn out.
like physically and mentally.
i have no idea whyy ):

2010-02-03T02:00:00.002+08:00

havent been updating.

andd sooo, i didn't go for IDEA presentation earlier the morning.
cause i wasnt ready and i have yet seen the slides.
how am i suppose to present on the spot?
and so we've conspired not to come together.
apparently, the pussy wanted to present on his own.
WTF, seriously.
you can resort to carry balls to this extent?
i guess you carried it a little too high,
all the way to the head.
you've gotta go easy on the ball carrying technique.
i know you're really professional at it,
we all can tell.
and you're seriously a PUSSY.
you do live up to your name dont you?
you told on us to the lecturer.
i really wonder what other sort of bimbotic ways you'll resort.
since you took a step ahead of us,
we'll follow your game.
trust me,
if Bernie fight, she fights all the way.
bet your balls shivered when you saw us outside his office,
following up your game(:
when will you ever stop?
in terms of bitchy-ness, you'll NEVER beat me.
in terms of ball-carrying, i admit defeat.
you beat anyone face down.
you're worse than a girl, i swear.
but you really know how to make me laugh at your stupidest move hurh?
nice.

so to start off my horrible tuesday,
electronics lab test.
i had a panic attack i swear.
and once it acts up, i cant get anything right.
i was literally swearing at the machines.
but the panic was redundant.
in the end, everything turned out well.
apparantly, my mind was still blank and couldnt get hold of myself.

then during my 3 hr break, i had to rush through the ever so wordy powerpoint slides.
done by you know who.
it was more of an essay.
me and debby edited it like crazy.
and finally we presented our slides that we were suppose to in the morning.
thank goodness a second chance was given (:
guess i manage to salvage our marks.
phew.

didnt go for dip plus.
i guess alot things are affecting me.
since the start of the day.
it was a hectic tuesday, and almost everything didn't turn out well.
the way i want it to be.
almost had a break down in school.
emotions overwhelmed me, from different situations.

i really do hope you're fine.
i'm really worried and concern.
but the difference, i'm standing by as a friend.
your situation is affecting me, alot.
i'm trying to get hold of myself.
i've let my ego down, but is it all too late?
we only learn to treasure when we know we're going to lose it.
thats human nature for you.

2010-01-30T21:46:00.001+08:00

watching bobby and winnie eat is already a bliss (:

2010-01-30T20:41:00.002+08:00

i'm sooo going to switch to tumlr after STs.

okayy,
2010 has been alright so far.
already fufilled some resolutions, while broke many others.
i've tried new things, and still tryingg!(:
my hair is now apricot brown, which i think its only obvious in the sun.
anddd,
i pierced my ear.
bungee is up next in batam after STs.
i'm not sure if i've got the guts to try it when i'm up there.
but i'd love to, still.
nevertheless, still going batam to give it a shot(:
also, i've signed up for introduction to sailing course.
wheeee(:
life is short, just TRY anything and everythingg.

today was not at all productive.
gonna stay up real late to study tonight.
waiting for tranquility to come.
thats when everyone's asleep,
and when bobby and winnie are right next to me sleeping(:

vicki passed his driving test.
my chauffeur is now choosing his car to buy.
like finally,
now, he has air LAND and sea license.
and of course im happy cause i'll benefit!(:

2010-01-29T01:49:00.002+08:00

times have changed, and so have you.
sometimes one can seem so different from the time you know them.
everything seems sweeter in the beginning,
and sometimes you wish it would stop just there.
but back to reality, once they get to know you,
they bother no more.
you're nothing but a "hi-bye" friend.

you're the past.
i've moved on.

i'm drained out from school.
i need a get away!!

2010-01-27T23:15:00.002+08:00

I HEREBY DECLARE THAT PHOTOSHOP IS MY WORSE ENEMY!

arghhh!!
i sat at burger king for almost 4 hrs and nothing was frigging done!
it was more like a trial and error for me.
seriously, its damn bad.
i'm a computer noob, i swear.

next week smells like hell.
2 prac test, and many other deadlines to meet.
we're not going to enjoy CNY!
cause the following week is ST.
good job sp.
well arrangement for dooms day.

today was business paper.
it wasn't as bad as i thought it was.
i just hope i'll at least get a B.
they scam us!
ask us study 3 chapters, in the end,
only 2 chapters was tested.
assholeesss!
i stayed up till 4am to study!
but i'm glad it did paid off.
most of the formulas did come out.
ohh well.
i deserve a pat on my back for burning midnight oil.

andd yayy!
i'm shifting to tumblr soon.
blogger don't allow me to upload my pictures for some reason.
probably its too (insert word).

i should blog more often.
it seems more productive (:

2010-01-24T22:31:00.003+08:00

haven't been updating, and alot has happened.
what you may ask, and if you don't,
the exit is on the top right.

stalker, i know you've been following my blog for updates about you!
hahaha.
do you feel honoured?
there were like special posts dedicated to you.
why, are you mentally impaired?
do you have to call someone who is not related to the whole saga in the middle of the night just to pass me a msg?
IF, and i just said IF, you've got the balls or sags i'd love to call ,
call me directly?
I DOUBLE DARE YOU.
you're too afriad to face me in school.
you've gotta change place just so not to see my face?
does my face send shivers down your spine?
i guess it did(:
and look who is the childish one.
you've gotta go through the whole trouble of reading my facebook and blog,
and pass messages for someone through a third party.
just to say i'm childish?!
you're the joke of the year, i swear.
internet is my ranting platform, you don't bring personal things into work.
well, i guess its too difficult for a 25 KID like you to understand.
your interllectual capacity is as tiny as a micro organism.
i guess thats an understatement,
but i'm trying.
and so, i understand what you're going through.
you're forgiven,
NOT.

and on friday, someone had to piss the shit outta me,
AGAIN.
i guess my new year resolution to curse less is not working.
the gist of the story is this.
went far east with siqi to shop.
in this shop, we were just browsing through necklaces.
and apparently, one part of it looks fugly.
i held that part to have a closer look to see if i could take it out.
and apparently, it just broke.
the lady saw and said we had to pay for it.
being me, i argued like there's no tmr.
i guess i didn't say as much as i wanted cause firstly,
she was a china freak, and my mandrin suck badly.
secondly, i was shaking in anger.
don't challenge me.
and qiqi wanted to pay settle everything once and for all.
i was persistent.
i had to pull her out of the shop to prevent her from paying.
even if its 10bucks, we're not in the wrong.
as we walked out she shouted like some mad china dog just so to embarrass me.
i'm least afraid of embarrassment at such a situation.
and there, we didn't have to pay a cent.
if i fought all the way, i'm gawd darn sure i'd win.

moral: don't fight with me if i retaliate, cause i'd beat you face down. SUCKERS.

2010-01-20T22:25:00.002+08:00

one word, disappointment.
well, thats for myself.
i did terribly in gems quiz.
i can't believe myself.
my favourite, biology.
and i let myself down.
11 out of 20.
devastating.
i'm not gonna be able to forgive myself for the next few weeks.

and,
you know i'll win this battle.
why bother fighting to begin with?
you've finally gave up didn't you?
at least you weren't that stupid to carry on till the end.
well, thats really slow.
but, you've came to realisation?
*clap clap.
still, you're a pussy in my eyes, and forever will be.
so, go fcuk yourself and die,
that'll do everyone a favour.

i hate periods.
i guess its a form of karma for me.
hahaha.
after all the cursing and swearing.
i guess cramps is just a pay back every month.
fair enough(:

2010-01-19T00:43:00.002+08:00

now i know.
everything indeed made sense,
when you listen to the song tonight.

moving on.

i dread tuesdays!
and i swear i don't know whats going on in dip plus lessons.
i thnk i just have no interest in business at all.
my mind is always wandering.
i think i'm using more energy to stay awake rather than listen in class.
semester, would you faster come to an end?

2010-01-17T18:05:00.003+08:00

and so you want a confrontation?
well, PUSSY, you haven't seen the worse side of me.
if letting go of all hatred and anger is so difficult for you,
well, let me enhance it for you.
try me bitch.
i can't believe you're so childish to this extent.
i'm still awed at the fact that you're 24 this year,
and have already served your service, which i cannot think of what you could ever contribute.

just because you've got two happy PEWNY sags doesn't intimidate me,
PUSSY.
bring it on, i'm waiting for the day you confront us YOURSELF.
i swear you'll never wanna talk to me in your lifetime.

p.s don't go back crying to your mummy we bullied you.

2010-01-17T01:39:00.002+08:00

came back from jiajian and friend birthday party.
it was madness.

i have came into a conclusion that,
BERNIE cannot drink alcohol with mixers!

my stomach felt darn uneasy when i did drink mixers.
but when i drank either on the rocks or neat,
i felt perfectly fine.
i mean, my body is darn weird i swear.

andd noww i'm back home,
trying to get the momentum of studying back
i guess blogging is more productive(:

2010-01-15T13:38:00.000+08:00

the song officially missing you is stuck in my head.
its replaying ever min!

2010-01-15T12:54:00.002+08:00

to sum up the week.

on tuesday,
i had an eventful day with siqi!
mainly cause she fell and for nothingg.
HA.
went for JJ class chalet on tuesday night,
and did not had a wink.

on wednesday,
i almost died.
i slept while msging halfway.
nice.
wednesday night, gave gab a surprise for his birthday with his friends.
operation success.
(:

todayy,
my stomach was not cooperative.
was feeling intense pain in the morning,
for no reason.
skipped lessons, and slept till about now.
more than 7 tests coming up.
and the week after chinese new year, ST.
nice.
we're soooo going to enjoy our chinese new year hurh?

2010-01-12T00:35:00.001+08:00

nicely,

both birthdays the same.

same name, same birthdays.

jinxed.

2010-01-11T19:34:00.001+08:00

Absence is to love what wind is to fire;

it extinguishes the small,

it rekindles the great.

-Comte DeBussy

2010-01-11T18:13:00.002+08:00

you come to love not by finding the perfect person,
but by seeing an imperfect person
perfectly.
-sam keen

2010-01-10T22:26:00.002+08:00

JUST FOR LAUGHS.

steven. says:
some random girl add me on fb
the day we met was like a hit and run says:
hahaha
who who?!
steven. says:
den msn want talk crap
hurts.. says:
erm u open minded?
steven. says:
lol i'd give you a vague reply
hurts.. says:
can chat open topics? kinda bored.
steven. says:
sure what you want to talk about
hurts.. says:
erm u naughty kinda guy one?
steven. says:
why not talk about teletubies or pokemons
they're way more interesting -.-
the day we met was like a hit and run says:
HAHAHAHAHA
steven. says:
then she dint reply alr
hahahahah
the day we met was like a hit and run says:
HAHAHAHAHA
you best lur
salute!
steven. says:
ty ty
hahahaha

2010-01-10T22:11:00.001+08:00

please don't ask me about my dogs.
i don't feel like talking about it at the mean time.
i just wanna live in self denial,
and buy as much time as i can.

2010-01-10T02:30:00.003+08:00

the thought of letting bobby and winnie go just kills me.
i don't know if it was selfish of me to adopt them in the first place.
i was mad excited about adopting dog cause i love dogs to bits.
apparently, a family was willing to take them in, and pay for any of their medical bills,
no matter how much it would cost them.
but the dogs came to me eventually cause i accepted the offer first.

i remember the first day when i brought them home.
i rang vicknesh every sec they did something.
cause i was unsure of everythingg.
i had to leash them up cause of my grandmother.
i took the risk of bringing them back knowing my grandmother detest dogs.
they barked non stop whenever no one was in sight.
probably they were traumatised or either not used to the environment.
i was in distress of whether to keep them further or not.
just after the first day.
i didn't know if i had sufficient energy to keep it going.
they were pretty sick.
one of them had blood in her diarrhea,
and the other had blood in the urine.
my heart sinks whenever i see them in such a state.

then gradually, everything else seems to fall in place.
i kept them in my house for more than a month of so.
for most who doesn't know, i told my grandmother that its my friend's dog,
and that she had to go overseas.
but how long can i keep this lie going?
apparently, i had to put the dogs at debbie's place.

but then again, she has a dog.
and its illegal to keep more than 2 small dogs in a hdb flat.
moreover, bobby and winnie barks whenever people are at the door.

so here they are back at my house again.
you don't really wanna know what i told my grandmother.
but vick has already found them a permenant owner.
and i'm pretty reluctant about the whole situation.
nothing to do with the new family, cause they are great.
but to part with them just pains me so much.
i wanna persuade my grandmother,
but i'm not sure if its works.
i'm buying for time.

i'd rather not go shopping and get them treats and toys.
i'd fufil any conditions, like doing the chores, just to keep them.
i'd take the time to bring them for walk everyday no matter how tired i am.
i'd sacrifice any time i have just to give them love and play with them.

i hope granny understands.

i'd sink into depression the day they leave my hands.

2010-01-10T00:22:00.001+08:00

I'M OFFICIALLY MISSING YOU, TONIGHT (:

2010-01-09T00:53:00.002+08:00

got back math paper today.
i was emotionless.
i guess i was numbed to the type of results i'd be getting.
87 out of 100.
i really have no idea how i should react.
rejoyce, or down.

i guess i'd have to mug my way through ST.
i NEED As!
everyone else seems to be doing so well.
except me.
what have i become of?

2010-01-07T20:52:00.002+08:00

A POST DEDICATED TO XU SIQI,
as requested.

haha.
okayy,
HAPPY BELATED BELATED BIRTHDAY!(:
going to bintan with you was enjoyable,
although there was nothing much we could do.
anddd, i really don't know what else to sayy but,
i <3 youuu! (:

2010-01-07T20:47:00.001+08:00

I passed my auto cadd!!
wheeee(:
close to an A though.
i'm more than contented, cause i never knew i'd pass ((:

2010-01-06T23:13:00.001+08:00

i just pierced my ear!!
like finally!
(:
i've been wantingg to pierce,
okayy, not for long.
but i've been saying it recently.
just had a sudden urge.
i guess it was rather random?
haha.

2010-01-05T23:30:00.003+08:00

you seem to be the only asshole that can bring my emotions up and down constantly.

"Hi, i'm the guy that still loves you"

i'm giving up.
entirely.

2010-01-05T22:34:00.002+08:00

i think i just crushed some pussy's remaining balls this morningg.
the fact was point blank in your face bitch.
accept the fact.
you're gonna piss me off real bad.

got back results for electronics.
not the ideal results i expect of myself.
i really don't know what is happening to me.
procrastination seems to have settled in my life.
i need to buck up!
i simply hate myself for some reasons or another.

i'll go down on my knees even if its for 24hrs and pray,
that i will NEVER EVER NEVER, be in the same group as you,
EVER again.

2010-01-04T22:45:00.003+08:00

THE WORSE DAY OF MY ENTIRE POLYTECHNIC LIFEEE!

first, i had terrible tummy aches,
followed by watery diarrhea.
then, it was sucky presentation.
lastly, tragic results from mechanics.
i just passed, on the dot.
wtf.
depressingg.

i felt awful.
no words could express how i felt.
so tears did the talkingg.
i felt like some cry baby, but it was a non voluntary reaction.
it was uber embarrassingg.

however,
thank you for ending the day with a nice compliment.
things seem to fall back in place once again (:

2010-01-04T00:26:00.002+08:00

AHHHH.
HELL HAS JUST BEGAN!
school is on its wayy to torture us,
slowly, bit by bit.

my iphone is mad awesomeeee.
you'll never knoww.
wahahha.

my face is screwed to the max.
the beautician says its stress.
how does our face response to stresss?
arghhh.

andd my bangs suck.
like big timeee.
kinda regret.

i'm screwed for sem two.

2010-01-02T10:17:00.002+08:00

so i haven't slept since last night.
was an awesome night.
my bro was my company, and we talked loads of crap.
i guess we rarely had such a chance.

had the best breakfast yet.
went vivo mac.
but my stomach felt really quesy.
i guess its cause of the red bull and vodka.
didn't have much.
my stomach still feels really uncomfortable noww ):

thanks for making my day(:
everything seems back in place,
although i know its not.

2010-01-02T04:35:00.002+08:00

yayy!
BERNIE IS GETTING HER IPHONE LATER!
awesomeeee.
(:

2010-01-02T04:24:00.001+08:00

if one day you ever find/read my blog,
would you tell me the truth?
nothing, but wholly the truth?
i don't really wanna leave without knowingg why.

2010-01-02T03:05:00.004+08:00

how about a countdown to the day school start?

2days?
i'm a screwed bitch.
gonna wear formal on the first day of school.
damn lazy!
andd its gonna be darn weird esp in the train.
arghh.

i need to adjust my bodily clock.
i need to get to sleep by 1am!
its almost impossible ):

NEW YEAR RESOLUTION:

1. sleep by 2am every night when there's school the next day
(i hope i fufil it even for a day)

2. GPA of at least 3.5 for year one
(just hope i don't screw up this sem)

3. tell bobby and winnie i love them at least once a week.
(i miss them like there's no tmr! ): )

4. TRY to stop cursing people who annoys the shit outta me
( like thats going to happen)

5. stop procrastinatingg
(it never gets me down to work)

6. go overseas with purely friends.

7. stop thinking of jackasses
(it will, in a matter of time)

8. pierce my ear

9. curl my hair
(i wanna try everythinggg in life, if thats ever possible)

10. level one climbing!
(its always words, but no actions done)

11. listen less to emo songs
(the lyrics are getting to me)

12. start exercising for at least twice a week
(haven't been exercisingg for the 3 weeks! getting fat!)

13. stop all food intake when the clock strikes 1
(if i've no food, i can't sleep! this is as good as asking me to stay home. tragic)

i guess i can't think of anything else.
i'm just mad bored.
everyone seems to be sleeping,
no one's onlineee.

2010-01-01T23:12:00.001+08:00

gasy red bull + vodka,
suck!
my tummy is churningg,
andd my face is as red as a tomato!
):

2010-01-01T21:04:00.002+08:00

okayy, 2009 has been alright i guess?
i just hope 2010 would be really nice to me((:
i'm just looking forward to a wonderful time.
andd i'm very much looking forward to march!
one and a half month of holiday!!
wheeeeeeeeeee(:

alright, noww back to work ):
blame myself for procrastinatingg.

new resolution:
STOP PROCRASTINATINGG, AND GET THINGS DONE!

2009-12-30T22:33:00.002+08:00

it took forever for 3 photos to load.

i hate blogger when it comes to photo uploading! ):

2009-12-30T19:29:00.001+08:00

noww this is turning into a bitch fight,
you PUSSY!
if this is what you want, then bring it on.
i can be bitch-ier than you,
try me.

my grades are wayy more important than how you feel.
i'm getting things my wayy,
fuck-face.
even if i have to use force,
I WILL.

2009-12-30T19:04:00.000+08:00

why do i adhore but love you at the same time?

2009-12-29T23:17:00.002+08:00

prevailing menstrual pain makes me cranky!
):

2009-12-29T14:45:00.001+08:00

CRAMPS' A BITCH!
it won't let me enjoy my dayy!
arghhhh.
i want you to disappear and never re-surface earth ever again!

2009-12-29T01:43:00.002+08:00

do you mean it when you said sorry?
or is it just any other word that comes out any other day?
i'm sick of what you have to say to me.
first you appear in my life,
then you scramble without telling me how i should pick up the pieces.

when avoiding seems to be the only way,
you appear as and when you like,
and making me forget about the past is back to square one.

i wanna stop being a pathetic fool to you.
i really hope the day comes real soon.

2009-12-28T03:21:00.002+08:00

removed the post with pictures cause it destorted my whole template.
thanks ely for teaching me to resize.

now i'm just finding things to do so i won't doze off doing my work.
its just too dry ):
i swore to myself,
i'd never ever take anything related to engineering in Uni.
never ever, ever never!
i just hate the technical parts.
looking forward to year two where we major in science(:

2009-12-28T01:30:00.002+08:00

the tranquility of the night calms my nerves.
everyone is sound asleep, and i'm the only one awake.
its the only time where i can truly settle down to study,
cause i'm away from all distractions.

2009-12-27T14:48:00.003+08:00

christmas has been alright i guess?
did the annual "routine".
went to aunt's house to celebrate.
i just feel that as you get older,
christmas ain't christmas anymore.
the excitement just fades.

went to watch the kumar show at the 3 monkey's cafe.
he is just gawd darn awesome.
racists freak, but i like ;)

noww, back to doing assignments ):
probably christmas ain't that christmasy cause of projects, and what not.
does singapore even know the definition of HOLIDAY?

p.s.
blogger suck at uploading pictures big time!
andd i had to resort to photobucket,
andd it doens't turn out to be the size i want!
arghh ):

2009-12-20T19:30:00.001+08:00

the loves of my life <3

2009-12-20T01:22:00.001+08:00

the day we met was like a hit and run says:
hahaha
okayy
PENGG PENGGGG
zackpea@hotmail.com says:
zomg, pukes
yeah DARLING?
the day we met was like a hit and run says:
haha.
what are you doingg?
zackpea@hotmail.com says:
rotting?
omg, im so seriously bored
bored to tears
the day we met was like a hit and run says:
haha
what have you been doing?
stalking me?
zackpea@hotmail.com says:
haha, shit
i've been found out
nth much, just like going out, going in
LOL
dont take it the wrong way
the day we met was like a hit and run says:
hahaha
you cheat on me?!
zackpea@hotmail.com says:
NOOO
i didnt?!
i only have eys for you my dear...
the day we met was like a hit and run says:
awwww

the usual conversation we'll always have.
HAHAHA.

2009-12-19T22:04:00.003+08:00

rants.
i adhore people who THINKS that they are close to me.
they ASSUME very well that we can click really well.
because, i don't feel that wayy.
its a one way traffic.

apparently, we DON'T hit off well enough.
at least, i don't think so.
so, stop probing into my life, and everything i do.
please do me a favour,
go FCUK yourself, and die.
i don't give a shit about your exsistence.

just because you're a male, and 23,
does not give you all the rights to think you're capable enough to do anything.
cause apparently, you're not.
you think too highly and almighty of yourself.
i'm a female and i've got an ego bigger than your balls.
although i think you've hardly got any.
my point is,
it does not mean that if you're older,
you're more capable or self worthy than people who are younger than you.
you disgust me.
and it doesn't mean if you've been through the army,
you know all the SHIT.
cause, you don't.
you're just a loser medic that contributes shit to the army.
its not much of a big deal.
and cheers to you being a loser wasting 4 years of your life in MI.

bet you haven't got the worst of me, YET.
you should be gawd darn glad i didn't talk to you.
cause if i did, situation would turn ugly.

just mind your own fcuking business,
and get outta my life.
cause, you never were part of it.

2009-12-16T21:40:00.002+08:00

went tanning todayy!
andd now i'm back to my ncc days when i was really darkkk!
noww, i look more like a malay ):

nothing much was done today though.
i wish i had brought my cable to upload photos ):

okayy, home sweet home tmr!
i miss bobby and winnie ):

2009-12-15T21:58:00.002+08:00

Bintan is....
boring?
i guess my mum was right.
its a place out to cheat singaporeans.
its suppose to be cheaper than singapore,
but apparently, everything seems to be the same.
the resort looks like some safra resort.
the costings for food is also the same.
so why am i here?
apparently, for a get away.
i guess we'll have to find something to do tomorrow.

did massage today though.
my first experience, hence i can't say its good or not.

and thank goodness, there's internet to save meee!(:
i feel really disconnected from the world without my laptop for a day.

2009-12-14T23:49:00.002+08:00

going bintan tmr!(:
kinda excited!
havn't been outta country for awhile.
noww i'm at siqi's house.

i'm going to get all tanned,
again ):
and vicknesh asked me not to get tanner than him!
hahaha.
unless i am baked, if not,
its impossible(:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

2009-12-13T19:39:00.002+08:00

its been a really great week!(:
i've been slacking my ass off.
noww its back to assigments,
projects, and more projects!

going to bintan on tuesday.
i guess its not going to be the first time travelling without my family.
i'll need this get away to relax my mind.
but i just hope nothing ain't too expensive.

my mother is menopausingg! arghh.

2009-12-10T23:01:00.002+08:00

I'm too lazy to post pictures.
now facebook is easily available ;)
i love my prom photos!
it brings back memories.

went shopping today!
awesome finds.
but sinful hobby.
my bank is bleeding dry.

andd, debbie, i love your blog's current songg.
it described everything i felt.

is it all, or are we just friends?

2009-12-10T01:26:00.002+08:00

I'M FINALLY DONE WITH MST!!
although its only mid semester test,
but it feels like the end of year three.
i've worked so hard, and stressed my way through,
just for today and the rest of the 3 weeks to come.
although tonnes of projects in hand,
but its definitely less tiring for my brains.

after prom, i realised how much i missed my friends.
ZHEPENG, ELYSIA, ABIGAIL and STEVEN.
it was glad just knowing that they're there and that they're doing well i guess?
as for the rest, i definietly did miss them someway or another.
i just hope our friendship doesn't end just like that.
i missed the times when we just hung out in the canteen and sit there for hours just talking crap,
playing psp;burnout.
i'd love to see them soon again.
didn't stay for long cause mst was occupying my mind.
i would feel utterly guilty if i stayed any longer.

i don't like to hide things,
and so, i've decided to let it out.
i'm over, and i've already arranged my emotions back in order.
i'm fine, just like before(:

i guess i've been too stressed lately,
my friends have been plucking strands of white hair for me.
i'll only have them when i'm driven by stress.
noww i've got deadlines to meet, and i wanna enjoy my holidays at the same time.
i need someone to do time management for me!

2009-12-09T01:06:00.002+08:00

electronics was depressing,
seriously.

two more papers, and less than 24 hrs.
wheeeeee(:

and the truth will be out.
i'd promise myself that i'd make things clear, and be over with it.
i'm just afraid of the same reaction thats going to take place,
again.

but if its does, you're not worth my time.

i'm not here to be your rebound.

2009-12-07T14:35:00.001+08:00

Auto cad test in another 60 mins.
chances of PASSING,
10%.
wish me luck.

2009-12-04T00:41:00.002+08:00

i'm having terrible gum aches,
break out on my face,
early period.
all thanks to stress.

can't believe this is happening to me ):
i need to cope with stress in a better way.

can't time fly faster, so i can get over all of these?
arghhh.

2009-11-30T22:14:00.003+08:00

recently,
i've been getting unwanted attention cause of what i say.
its probably just this period of time.
it'll pass.

can't wait for prom night on 7th Dec(:
i wanna see everyone!
okayy, selected people.
chiong-ing for MST.
i need more stamina!

2009-11-29T20:14:00.002+08:00

MST, I'M GOING TO HUNT YOU DOWN,

FLAT.

noww, i'm beyond salvation.

i need the flow to study, 24hrs.

if i can, i really don't wish i could sleep.

so i could utilise the time to study my ass off.

sometimes, i wish i could stop being myself for a day.

2009-11-28T11:05:00.003+08:00

i don't know if i regretted telling you all this early.
cause i'm not prepared for the reactions you took.
its hurting like crazy.
i'm emotionless.
you left me cold and out of breath.

i don't usually wake up this early.
you gave me the motivation, thanks.

2009-11-28T00:38:00.003+08:00

IT ALL ENDS TONIGHT.

tonight i've fallen, and i can't get up.

i need your loving hands to come and pick me up

2009-11-26T00:56:00.001+08:00

could i sleep and wake up with you erased in my memory?
i hope it happens.

2009-11-25T23:23:00.002+08:00

i hate it when history is repeated.
and it has not happened the first nor the second.
do i really deserve it all?

maybe i guess its just plain infatuation.
nothing more.
please don't give me anymore false hope.
i can't take it any longer.

thanks, you just spoilt my day.

2009-11-25T00:59:00.002+08:00

Back from a hideous day in school.
Lab test as screwed up.
Presentation was crappy.
and i can't believe i survived in school with only one hour of sleep.
never done it before though.

enjoyed my time in debbie's place.
my only time where i could relax, and not thin about school work.
this week has been hell for me, although we're only 2 and half days through it.
its starting to burn like crap.
but then again, fri is a holiday.
so it makes things slightly better i guess?
just can't wait to get my dip plus test done tmr!
doubt i'll be sleeping early tonight, AGAIN.
i'm drained, both mentally and physically.

classmates make my life easier(:
they are really there for me when i'm at my most frustrated period of time.
i sometimes do feel bad.
cause i tend to vent frustrations on people.
i hope they'll understand.
i love you,
SIQI, RABIA, YANRAN(:

and i've been dying to watch 2012!

its been fully booked everywhere, ever since it came out!

its darn annoying, and i've been wailing for the past few days cause its one movie i'd die to watch.

and guess what?

it stops screening on 25th of nov!

wth.

2009-11-22T21:09:00.002+08:00

19th of nov,
the night at the pizza place was mad awesome!(:

things are progressing,
but my mind is getting confused by the day.
i'm not sure of what i really want.
i'm indeed one confused child.

i'm mad stress noww!
its worse anything, ever!
now, i'm starting to regret taking diploma plus.
but then again,
its because of that,
that i can see everyone's care and concern for me.
its really heart warmingg.
but i'm afraid, i can't cope ):

every little thing triggers my irritation and my level of endurance for anyone.
i get grumpy and frustrated at the slightest things.
it seems like all the deadlines are cramped in the same week.
i want to get over all these soon.
my mood is affecting everything i do.
i have no mood for anythingg ):
arghh. crapp.

2009-11-16T20:49:00.002+08:00

funny how i always seem busy, stress and loads of assignments in hand,
i can find the time and mood to blog.
and during holidays, i just don't have the mood to.

ANGIEEE.
please take care, and make a wise deicision.
for yourself at least(:

everyone seem so stress/ troubled over somethingg.
i feel kinda affected by it too.
i'm tired and sleepy whenever it comes to studying.
the mood and the flow isjust not coming, YET.
it needs to come real sooon!
when my mind goes on a holiday for a little too long,
its really difficult to get it adjusted to studying.
i'm so lost during lectures and tutorial and my mind just switches off.
i need motivation.
could anyone please motivate me?

2009-11-15T13:53:00.003+08:00

thank you ely for listening to me last night!
you're the only bitch which i told.

it feels so good just letting that one person know everythingg.
i don't wanna lie anymore.
but who would ever accept?

MST is in 2 weeks time.
and i'm here struggling.
my grades are going to plunge ):
i hate to procrastinate, but i still do after 18 years of my life.

2009-11-15T00:09:00.003+08:00

2009-11-14T23:57:00.007+08:00

went for SMAE say yesterday.

spending time with some of my classmates were fun(:

but the "concert" if you would call it for SMAE day was wayyy too atrocious to comment much.

probably cause i've been watching EMDD in kc for 4 years that the benchmarks were set.

EMDD in kc can never be found anywhere.

and i guess its the best school concert i've ever been.

not that i've been to many, nor am i bias towards my sch.

but seriously,

i felt that there was no life.

the master of ceromany is gawd damn horrible.

she should just stick her face in her ass and never come out again.

the performers had no standards.

ONLY except for ONE.

which i felt was rather impressive.

but in all, i'd rate it, 0.5 our of 5 stars.

ohh well.

pretty much enjoyed myself on friday night although it was friday the 13.

a part of me felt that i want to try something new.

something that no one would ever think i would do.

i hate lying, but people would give me a whole new perspective about me if i've ever told anyone.

its human instincts.

sometimes, a change in lifestyle in a small corner of my everyday life would be nice and enjoyable.

i wasn't expecting this from myself, but i did indeed enjoyed the night.

i like to experiment and experience new things.

theres so much i want to say, but i don't know how to start.

2009-11-12T23:29:00.002+08:00

i hate complications.
if it always happens, i'd rather not get into such situations first.
its annoying how it happens, and then fades.
its not the first, nor the second.

i'm tired of playing mind games.

sometimes solutions are not so simple,

sometimes goodbye is the only way.

2009-10-31T18:02:00.003+08:00

YAYYY!

i adopted a dog recently.

well, two in fact.

they are more than adorable.

they can't be seperated cause they're siblings.

andd to me they look as though they were tortured and ill treated by the previous owner.

the two dogs are 2 and a half years, but yet they look damn hell of scrawny!

my heart pains to see them in sucha state.

i'm not too sure if i ca n keep them for long.

my grandma doesn't seem to like the idea of having dogs.

and whenever i bring both of them out for a walk, everyone never fails to stare and give them the attention.

they are wayyy tooo adorable.

they are leashed in my house though.

andd i feeel darn bad ):

but my grandma thinks they are dirtyy ):

He is called bobby.i didn't name him. and i know its disgusting.

that puppy look

She's winnie and she wasn't feeling well ):

i wanna castrate and peel the owner with an orange peeler.

and make him suffer like there is no tomorrow.

2009-10-24T21:58:00.004+08:00

Blogger is quite screwed up!

my pictures are in the correct position,

but i have no idea why some of them are portrait.

ohh well.

2009-10-24T10:23:00.002+08:00

10km, the human race.
Bernie is damn proud of herself.
but noww, i have to pay for the price of pushing my body wayy beyond my limits.
i vomitted during the race about 5 times.
but i hope no one remembers my face.
one kind passerby offered me sweet, but i rejected it though.
didnt feel like having anything in my mouth.
i'm so glad vic didn't find me disgustingg.
haha.
i wanted to dig a hole and hide my face!

the accomplishment upon finishing the race was awesome.
its beyond words.
half the time i wanted to stop, but vic was beside me.
and i know i cannot stop because he'll push me.
i didn't put the D tag on my shoes cause i guess my timing was wayy too disgraceful for the world to see.
well, mine was 1hr 22mins.
faster than i expected, 2hrs.
the furthest i ran in my life, awesome!

anddddddddddddddddd,
thats not all.
I PASSED MY BASIC THEORY TEST IN JUST ONE TRY!
wahahaha.
didn't expect to.
was not feeling too well.
so double yayy!

2009-10-08T22:52:00.002+08:00

school is starting sooon.
andd gawwd.
looks like i have no time for myself.
okayy, more like no time to stone at home.
i've seen the timetable already, although it hasn't include one more module and my diploma plus.
but i'm already dreading it.
i end sch at 530 on tuesdays?
and the earliest would be fri 1130, which i think its for my other module to fit in.
and either tues or fri i'll end sch at 930.
dammit.
i wish life was just as slack as sem one.
i don't wanna move on.

so holidays was not all that wasted, i guess.
i did a fair share of enjoying myself,
and earning money,
and spending time with friends,
and working out.wooohoooo.
i hope i'm leaner noww.
should i join a cca?
i think i'll drop dead when i reach home.
ohh well.

i'm getting lazier to blog.
there's nothing for me to rant i guess.
i'm yearning for a longer break.
i dread school like helll.
its going to be out from the pan and into the fire.
there'll be differentiation for engineering math. ahhhhhh.
i hate school ):

2009-09-23T19:31:00.002+08:00

Yayyy!
I finally reached the ifrst step of my goal.
i've got 3.79 for my first sem's GPA.
well, its a step well taken(:
i'm so proud of myself.
but now, to maintain my results is not going to be an easy thing.
i hope i don't get too complacent ):

quite busy lately.
training for the nike run and planning for the children's day program.
i certainly everything does smoothly as expected.
ohh well.

i feel the quality of my life is reduced,
mainly due to too much sleep.
its not productive, and it doesn't help me in anyway,
but only to get sleepier each day.
but i dread going to school the next sem.
because the modules seems worse than last sem's.
and i'm intending to take diploma plus in business.
i just hope i can really cope.
its going to be 4 hours each week.
and its once a week.
in other words, 4 hours a lesson!
from 530-930pm.
arghh.
it sucks!
but its a privilege and prestige to take diploma plus.
although business is not anything close to what i want,
but my course limits me in the modules i can choose.
i hate engineering, seriously.
and everyone around me is encouraging me to take business.
for knowledge sake, and my own benefits.
but i least i get to graduate with 2 diplomas(:
sounds cool hurh?
its not in anyway cool if i'm in the process mugging.
still contemplating, but i don't have much time to decide.
i hope i don't make the wrong decision, AGAIN.

2009-09-17T23:38:00.007+08:00

Bernie ran 4 clicks todayy!(:
orgasmic!
its a sense of achievement for me.
for someone who doesn't like to run.
andd, my mind is weak.
it constantly tempts me to give up.
evil.
but my legs wouldn't let me stop.
its kinda great i guess.
4km has taken a toll on my body.
how would 10km be?
i just hope i'll be able to complete it.
but yayy, bernie has burnt calaroies (((:
i wanna be more lean!
but the intake of food wouldn't allow me.
i cannot avoid late night snacking on chocolates, milk, and cheese.
arghh.
i'm never the kind of person who can go on a diet.
NEVER. andd thank goodness, i'm not obese.

noww my body is achingg terribly.
it sucks.
but that means my muscles are degenerating and creating newer and better ones(:
okayy, yayy, i'm fitter!

i hate my face.
it just seems like generating new pimples!
i hate it! arghh.
go awayy.
my face used to be as smooth as baby's butt.
now its worse than an orange skin ):
arghhh. i wanna go for plastic surgeory.
i need a nicer face.

2009-09-16T00:38:00.003+08:00

i went gym todayy.
like finally!
but, its the first time i went with no satisfaction at the end.
probably i'm just so unfit.
i'll train, i'll train.
but no one wants to run with meee );
i ran 2.4 and i almost died.
i reallyyyy can't imagine myself in 10 click.
goodness.
i haven't been exercisingg, and i've been snacking ALOT.
esp past midnight,
its damn sinful, but i'm the kind that cannot hold hunger for long.
its almost deadly to me.

arghh, and noww flu is coming near me.
shoooo.

2009-09-15T02:31:00.000+08:00

bernie is going gyming tmr!
wheee(:
finally, its time to build a family of four ;)

2009-09-13T00:52:00.004+08:00

blogger kinda suck.
it just refuses to let me post pictures.
just when i created an account with lj, everything seems to work out well again.
i might just swicth to lj when i'm sure of it.
lj is not that friendly to use as blogger, but it seems much nicer ;)
www.bernieeee.livejournal.com

random pictures of me and heather.
we met a few days back to catch up.

2009-09-12T18:50:00.000+08:00

funny how i find the time and energy to blog during stressful times,
andd not blog during my holidays.
weird isn't it.

i've been doing pretty much shopping lately though.
andd i've just realised mustafa has nice and cheap things.
haha.
its rather odd, but its true.

i wanna join the nike human raceeee!
its time for bernie to loose those fats!
its a good time for me to train and tone up(:

okayy, my holidays are boringg.
sleep is more excitingg,
goodnight.

2009-08-30T21:21:00.000+08:00

computer programming was alright.
well, surprisingly!
i always feel that i panic for the stupidest reason.
andd stress myself up for no rhym of reason,
seriously.
i think i need meditation.
2 more to go.
andd math would be much of a breeze for me ;)
noww, i'm worried for engineering materials!
ahhhh.

HOLIDAYS, why won't you come faster! ):
this time, you MUST stay longerrr.
i'm dying for my well-deserved, break.
andd my mind is in the holiday mood alreadyyy.
arghhh.

nowadays, i'm feeling sleepier than ever!
i think its just the studyingggg symptoms.

2009-08-27T12:53:00.002+08:00

so electrical technology was not so bad after all?
i thought it was pretty do-able.
i can't bear to see my marks for computer programming tmr.
not that i have sat for the exam yet,
but apparently, whenever it comes to computer programming paper,
my mind tend to get distracted.
partially cause i'm getting my LG GD900 i think.
hahaha.
its sucha beauty, i swear.

andd yanran, its gonna be a dejavu for you!
apparently, she dreamt that i bought the phone and showed it off to her.
hahaha. thats one weird dream though.

anddd, noww i've gotta TRY and study for computer programming tomorrow!
6 more days till hell breaks loose!
wahahaha.
nothing to do with the 7th month though.

2009-08-25T00:15:00.002+08:00

first paper!
made me really afraid.
i don't know how to describe but the paper is the kind where you sit for and you're not sure to feel happy or not.
you know how to do everything, but yet you don't know if you're wrong.
i'm confused,
the paper made me confused.
but its sure one tricky one.

one down four more to go.
i'm getting more afraid and i'm not expecting myself to do well for the rest fo the papers at this rate.
its so different from all the apst year papers that i've done.
after exam, what irks me is some people.
they have to ask the people around them how they find the paper.
not solely out of concern, but wanting to be asked back,
so that they can answer, that its easy and they know it all.
i feel like gorging their eyes, tearing their skin, salting their wound, and make them kiss my ass.
its just plain annoying.

need to study.
wish me luck ;)

2009-08-22T18:46:00.001+08:00

ten more dayys!
it feels like how i felt during the week before o levels.
i mean, it seems like only ten days more,
but i'm sure its going to be ten painful days.
i'm starting to be really paranoid about almost everything now.

i'm so gonna have butterflies in my tummy on monday.
and my paper starts at four!
i want it to be in the morning so i can get over and done with.
please tell me why am i so afraid again?
i'm having mixed emotions.
now, i can't tell if i can do well, and i've been really pessimistic.
arghh.

i wanna watch
coco chanel, my sister's keeper,
fighting! my chaning tatum!

i've been busy studying since morning and before i know it, the sun sets,
and the cycle has been going on now for almost a week.
my brain is exhausted.
andd i vowed to myself i need to tone up.
i'd build 4 packs, in a month.
then i can peacefully go for wakeboarding lessons.
well, that will all happen after exams.
i've been eating wayyy to much when studying.
my brain hungers for food because its malnurished.
half of its energy has gone to thinking of how bad i might do, and of course, studying.
if the day hasn't been productive, i wouldn't be able to sleep.
the guilt in me would remain.

i can smell holidays coming my wayy(:

2009-08-11T18:25:00.000+08:00

so presentation was finally over!
pheww.
andd i was freding for it since last night.
i rushed through all the powerpoint slides and slept only at 4 last night.
didn't attend math this morning though.
but all went well during presentation(:

andd the surprise birthday celebration for vic wasn't so surprising afterall.
he kinda found out cause his mum gave it away accidentally.
darn.
ohh well.

two more weeks to semestral exams.
and i'm afraid ):
i'm afraid my hard work would not be paid off.
getting A's now are my aim.
i hope i can still reach for it.

2009-08-06T23:31:00.000+08:00

okayy. so school has been alright so far.
yesterdy was the last day of my muay thai lesson )):
i'll kinda miss it though.
noww i'll have to think about which cca i wanna join.
muay thai?
still have yet to decide though.
andd i've got 23/25 for muay thai test.
yayy(:

after muay thai yesterday,
i went to sengkang to teach tuition.
i just hope the boy don't fail in my hands.
ha(:
my only source of income for my thailand trip ):
it went so far good i guess.
i had a ride from dover to sengkang.
andd i fell asleep in his car!
embarrassinggg. arghh.
but i was exhausted!
but i was rather glad i didn't have to squeeze in the train(:

andd noww, i've only JUST started studyingg.
i need to get at least 80 for every module for me to get a distinction.
i really do hope i can make it.
i hate to see my friends doing better than me.
i know, i'm a bitch.
but seriously, i did study a fair share.
i'm gonna mug like crazy tmr!
abi you'd better help meeee!
noww, i'm being some competitive bitch in class.
but i've keeping it to myself.
noww, i have to pay for the price of being too complacent!

BUCK UP ASSHOLE.

2009-08-02T19:30:00.000+08:00

worked last night.
pretty good pay i suppose.
apparently, i missed my last bus home.
so i took a night rider.
hell of expensive!

ohh, and i saw nic at work!
cool yo.
it was pretty interesting overall.
andd one thing,
I FCUKING HATE INTAN.
pain in the ass.

noww i've gotta get back into the study mood.
life sucks,
lets take drugs.

2009-07-29T22:25:00.000+08:00

period sucks.
cramps ain't any better.

so my computer programming practical wasn't so bad afterall hurh?
i was aiming for full marks.
but well i guess i did a pretty stupid mistake.

school has been pretty alright i guess.
just that semestrial tests are coming and i'm not at all prepared!
argghhh.
so lil time left.
i'm not into the mood of studyingg,
yet.
darn.

met up with nicole recently though.
i was really glad we did meet up.
it feels really good having to catch up with IJ girls.

nothing much have been happening recently though.
poly life can really bore me to death.
well, also i don't really have many friends in school.
andd i'm no emo kid.
i'm planning to go thailand, probably end of this year.
almost everything is settled.
just waiting for the right time to book tickets(:

2009-07-15T21:10:00.002+08:00

i just remembered something that was pretty traumatising last week.
it happened at muay thai.
my usual muay thai partner, guy, was practicing his kicks and punches.
while i was the holding the pads for punching.
i was just stonning on the floor when he did a high kick.
goodness, you don't wanna know what i saw.
his pubes!
i was stunned.
andd on the second time, accidentally of course,
i saww it again! i was certain he didn't wear his underwear.
gawd. it was a painful sight.
i swear.
andd thank goodness, he didn't come todayy.
haha.
if not i wouldn't know how to face him.

but today's muay thai was pretty fun.
we got to do a mini sparring.
yess, mini.
which means, no legs, elbows and knees.
so you may think, why the hell do we spar then.
but it turns out that you could do much more than you think.
so obviously i was the only girl and i found it rather awkward though.
never knew sparring could be this excitingg. hah(:

2009-07-15T20:22:00.002+08:00

well, yess.
i haven't been blogging.
andd the long awaited computer programming results.
i've got 68?
its surprising i guess?
i had no clue what my results were going to be.
i swear computer programming is unpredictable.

went prawning with my cousins.
it was awsome.
so much funn.
andd i can't eat prawns due to allergy.
wth right.
but prawning is totally different from fishingg.
and which 4 rods, about 7 of us caught 47 prawns in 3 hours.
cool rightt((:
only took two pictures though. but i'm lazy to upload.
heh(:
i wanna go prawning sometime soon again!

noww projects has been all thrown to us at one go.
i'm not sure if i could handle it,
or rather, have i handled it well?
sometimes i'd dominate the group without realising,
only till the end.
but is it good or bad?
for me, i felt that my reason in poly is to do well in everything to reach to where i wanna be.
probably i was too anxious in getting things done right,
that more often than not, i don't listen to another opinion.
i hate that part of myself.
i feel that i contribute too much,
so is it ultimately right or wrong?
sometimes you're so blinded by the ambition to excel,
so much so that i neglect alot of other things.
i hate project work, seriously.
why am i in poly?
i'll never be able to escape project work even until my next life.

andd just something random.
I ABHORE UNGENTLEMENT "GUYS".
they should wear skirt instead, seriously.

2009-07-07T22:18:00.002+08:00

well, mst has so far been really kind to me(:
my first 100marks in a test, in my entire life.
felt a sense of achivement.
andd my mum gave me 20bucks for it.
hilarious.
andd well, my other subjects,
so far so good.
all As, except computer programming.
i knoww i'll pass, but an A is impossible.
unless my paper was marked backwards that is.

i had 98marks for math.
goodness, i short of 2 marks.
but i heard that when the marks are typed into the system,
it'll round up, so all in all, i actually get full marks(:
wheee(:

engineering materials-83
electrical technology-100
fundamental mathematics-98
thermofluids-84

overall, i'm more than satisfactory i must sayy.
probably its because of the fall i had in JC that made me realise i should do something about my life.
i'm actually glad i went college for a year and dropped out.
at least, i wasn't complacent.
i realised i'm becoming more and more competitive, which i think its badd in a wayy
):

well, i certainly do hope i don't even start becoming complacent.
but i dare to sayy its my best achievement ever.
really.
i think i deserve a pat on my back.
good job bernie(:

my body clock needs some tuning!
i'm getting all tired and restless in school ):
andd tmr, muay thai resumes.
kinda reluctant though.
i need a cca to keep myself fit!
i'm too afraid to step on the weighing scale for noww.

2009-07-04T14:36:00.002+08:00

yesss!
i'm finally done and over with(:
next week are the results,
i'm afraid ):

i went shopping with my mum, and brother.
yesterday was a whole lots of fun(:
its like going into a place where everyone has something to look for.
they had both guys and girls clothinggg.
we were at club marc shopping.
it was darn cheap((:
nothing beats retail therapyy((:
we had mud pie from coffee club(:
the once in a blue moon shopping with family was great(:

and noww, i'm home alone.
it sucks.
esp after exams.
since my exams are over, i've got no mood to open my books to study.
so i've got nothing to do.
arghh.

2009-07-02T23:45:00.002+08:00

computer programming paper todayy.
well, i shan't elaborate on how painful it was to go through that one hour,
without knowing if i can pass the paper.

tmr, thermofluids.
last paper yo.
finally!
it feels just like the o levels.
haha. andd its only my mid semester test.
wayy to go bernie, way to go.
but i'm finally relieved, i don't have to forgo my sleep for the tests!
well, i really do hope i can do well for this paper!
*cross fingers.

tmr, after my paper, i'll be going shopping with my mummy!(:
i need retail therapyy!

2009-07-01T12:37:00.003+08:00

math paper todayy.
it was a breeze i would sayy.
just hope no foolish careless mistakes this time.
*fingers crossed.

ohh my gawd, my worst nightmare tmr.
computer programming?
should i even turn up for the paper?
should i procrastinate?
my marks are gonna be real ugly on c prog.
i mean, its for weirdos, geeks and people who have no life.
am i even going to use programming in future?
i hope i'll never ever see that subject EVER again.
arghh.
its just crazy thinking about it.
i feel that half the battle is already lost, when i'm less than 24 hrs away from the paper.
noww, not even god can help me.
great.
noww, i have to think about what to scribble on my paper tmr.
i'm on the verge of giving up on the subject.

three down and two to go(:

2009-06-29T17:19:00.002+08:00

first paper of the week.
i was rather confident.
i felt no nervousness the night before.
but when i woke up today afternoon,
butterflies were swirling in my stomach.
it was nauseatic.
i know i'm well prepared.
afterall, i did the past year papers 4 times.
but my mind still wasn't settled.
i know some how or rather,
my carelessness would fault me.
but i'm not too sure this time.

during the paper,
my hands were literally trembling.
whyy?
i have to keep my fingers crossed, andd hopefully,
no careless mistakes this time round.
i want this so much, cann you tell?

for noww, my mind is at piece.
one down four more to go(:

2009-06-27T14:50:00.002+08:00

kris allen is hott!
he sung heartless on american idol.
it was truly mesmerisingg.
and guess what?!
he has a wife!
andd he is 23?
thats wayy to young to be tied down.
but his version of heartless was wayy better than kanye,
well, in my opinion that is.

okayy, i am bored.
i've done the same set of test papers for three times!
its like my fourth time doing them.
i hope i can remember all of the answers and questions,
and some how or rather it would come in good use on mondayy.

2009-06-26T23:10:00.002+08:00

watched transformers.
awsomee!
its just as excitingg as the first.
no preference though.
i'd rate it 5 stars.
but its a rather long movie, just like the first one!
two and a half hours.
worth the money andd the timee(:

i've realised that many are mugging at the last week of the holidays.
andd while many are mugging away, i'm enjoying the last of my holidays.
its rather weird though.
i mugged in the middle of the the week, andd then enjoy the last week.
knowing that everyone is mugging at this time,
sometimes i feel really guilty.

okayy, so the last three days of my holidays are intensive mugging days!
andd why does sp not have a school closure?